What was it?

Tuesday night I was walking around my neighborhood.  I noticed a light in the sky.  At first I thought maybe it was an airplane behind a cloud.  It didn’t appear to move for several minutes, so I decided it probably wasn’t that.

It was kind of dim and blurry.  I thought maybe it was a galaxy or something.  Then it started to change shape.

It started looking more conical and moving to the south.  I thought maybe it was rocket.  I would expect a rocket to to have a bright orange tail of flame behind it.  This was dim and kind of bluish.

It eventually went behind a cloud and I lost sight of it.

I’ve never seen anything like it before.

Have you?

I still love my wife

It’s a weird situation.

My wife told me almost six months ago she wants a divorce.

She was thinking about it a long time before that.

We still live together.  We sleep in different rooms.

She hasn’t filed for divorce yet.  She talks about it occasionally, though.

I’m not really in a hurry.  I just wish I knew for sure what was going on.

I still think the world of her.

She has plenty of flaws.  I’m sure she knows that better than I do.

She wanted to be with me when I could barely support myself.

She was supportive of me when I was laid off and couldn’t find another job.

She worked to support our family so I could go to college.

She forgave me the first time I told her I’d been lying to her and that I was addicted to porn.

She stayed with me when I told her I wasn’t going to finish my degree.

Best of all, she’s given me two sweet, wonderful little boys.

I hate that I hurt her.  Again.

It hurts me to lose her.

Whatever happens though, I want her to be happy.