Tuesday night I was walking around my neighborhood. I noticed a light in the sky. At first I thought maybe it was an airplane behind a cloud. It didn’t appear to move for several minutes, so I decided it probably wasn’t that.
It was kind of dim and blurry. I thought maybe it was a galaxy or something. Then it started to change shape.
It started looking more conical and moving to the south. I thought maybe it was rocket. I would expect a rocket to to have a bright orange tail of flame behind it. This was dim and kind of bluish.
It eventually went behind a cloud and I lost sight of it.
I’ve never seen anything like it before.
It’s a weird situation.
My wife told me almost six months ago she wants a divorce.
She was thinking about it a long time before that.
We still live together. We sleep in different rooms.
She hasn’t filed for divorce yet. She talks about it occasionally, though.
I’m not really in a hurry. I just wish I knew for sure what was going on.
I still think the world of her.
She has plenty of flaws. I’m sure she knows that better than I do.
She wanted to be with me when I could barely support myself.
She was supportive of me when I was laid off and couldn’t find another job.
She worked to support our family so I could go to college.
She forgave me the first time I told her I’d been lying to her and that I was addicted to porn.
She stayed with me when I told her I wasn’t going to finish my degree.
Best of all, she’s given me two sweet, wonderful little boys.
I hate that I hurt her. Again.
It hurts me to lose her.
Whatever happens though, I want her to be happy.