Gay?

In the past I’ve wondered if I was bisexual or gay.

I’m not the most masculine man.

I’m kind of effeminate.

I like cross-stitch.

I’ve sewn and done crochet.

I know I’m not gay, though, because I’m very attracted to women.

In the past I’ve accidentally downloaded gay porn.

“Phil, how did you ‘accidentally’ download gay porn?”

At the time I used LimeWire to download videos.  I had to rely on file names to tell what I was downloading.  Some of those file names were lies.

The feelings I got from watching gay porn were revulsion and nausea.  So I know I’m not bisexual.

I’m not trying to say anything negative about anyone who is gay or bisexual.

I just know that’s not who I am.

10 things I can do to help me get to the temple

  1. Read scriptures 30 minutes every day
  2. Pray more
  3. Pray for longer
  4. Get rid of my internet connection
  5. Get to church every week
  6. Start taking the Sacrament
  7. Go to Temple Square on a regular basis
  8. Watch conference talks every day
  9. Watch Bible videos every day
  10. Share the Gospel with others

Things I’m grateful for today 20180110

  1. Radio
  2. Songs
  3. Nothing was seriously damaged
  4. Moving boxes
  5. My car gets good gas mileage
  6. My boys still love me
  7. Self-love
  8. ASMR videos
  9. Retrowave/Synthwave
  10. I’m still alive

10 ways to improve my spirituality

  1. Pray every morning
  2. Pray every night
  3. Read the Book of Mormon every day
  4. Watch inspirational videos every day
  5. Pay tithing
  6. Go to church every Sunday
  7. Receive my endowment
  8. Read books by General Authorities
  9. Give myself quiet time to think every day
  10. Follow inspiration and revelations I’m given

10 ways to help a headache

  1. Painkillers
  2. Meditation
  3. Deep breathing
  4. A hot shower
  5. Listening to relaxing music
  6. Watching/listening to ASMR videos
  7. Eating
  8. Silence
  9. Sleeping
  10. Drinking water

Things I’m grateful for 20171226

  1. My family and I had a good day yesterday
  2. Recordings of my boys
  3. I got home safely last night
  4. Mr. Krueger’s Christmas
  5. My cold improving
  6. Window scrapers
  7. Patience
  8. Having a job until the end of the week
  9. Abundance
  10. Knowing that things will work out