Why do I drink caffeine?

I’ve mentioned before that I’m fat.

I’m guessing at least half of that excess weight came from Mountain Dew.

Partially because I like the way it tastes.

Partially because of the caffeine.

Quitting caffeine sucks.

I hate having a headache all the time.

Being tired all the time is the worst!

Caffeine withdrawal gives me this weird thirst.  I can’t quench it with water.

After the withdrawals are over I feel a lot better, though.

When I drink caffeine habitually I get heartburn.

As well as other digestive issues.

I don’t sleep very well.  I wake up in the middle of the night.  Then I don’t want to go back to sleep.

Drinking caffeine is not the best option for me.

But I have a hard time sticking to any kind of schedule.

Sometimes I get sleep deprived.  I feel like I need something extra.

Just one won’t hurt.

It’s never just one.

Before I know it, it’s become a habit again.

I feel trapped

“If you hate your job, you hate your life.”

– Dale Partridge

I really want to quit.  But I feel like I can’t.

I’m burning out.  Burned out.  Beyond burned out.

And no one seems to care.

“Just keep going.  We’re depending on you!”

I’m running myself into the ground.

“Stop complaining!”

I’m overwhelmed.

First-world problems, I know…

Maybe I’m just tired.

I never want to hear that phone ring again.

Why can’t people ever think for themselves?

In my dark moods I think some people are too stupid to live.

I’m tired of being a doormat.

I feel like my work is stupid and meaningless.

I hate myself for doing something only for money and being so gutless.

How much longer do I have to keep doing this?