“How are you?”

Why do strangers ask me how I am?

They don’t really want to know.

I don’t really want to tell them.

Some don’t bother waiting for a  reply.

They just ask out of habit.

What else do people do just out of habit?  Unconsciously?

People need to start living more consciously.  More intentionally.

Especially me.

I’m incredibly awkward

I’m uncomfortable a lot.

I give a lot of one-word answers when I’m not comfortable.

I’m not good at small talk.

I’m bad at letting people know when a conversation is over.

I’m not good at reading people’s emotions.  I might be slightly autistic.

I have trouble finding the right words.

Sometimes I st-st-stutter.  I trip over my tongue.

I’m not friendly.  Not because I don’t like someone.   I’m not sure what’s appropriate, so I err on the side of caution.

I get wrapped up in my own thoughts.  I don’t like being interrupted.  I get annoyed.

I don’t like talking to strangers.  It’s stressful.  It’s uncomfortable.

If you hi to me on the street and I don’t recognize you you’ll probably get a strange reaction.  Don’t take it personally.

I’m just incredibly awkward.

I’m an extreme introvert

I need a lot of time to myself.  Being  around people drains my energy.  Being alone recharges me.  When I don’t get time to myself I get tired, frustrated.

I generally prefer small groups when I am with people.   I enjoy being around my family the most.

I don’t like dealing with strangers.

I’m not good at talking.  Especially small talk.  I’m better at writing. It gives me time to think about what I want to say.  I can go back and edit/proofread it.

 Talking on the phone is the worst.  I lose the benefits of talking to someone in person without gaining any of the benefits of writing.
A lot of the things I enjoy are one-person activities: video games, programming, surfing the intarwebs, reading, model building, drawing, writing, etc.

I hate my job

I hate talking on the phone.  I’ve been doing professionally for twelve years.

I’m an extreme introvert.  Talking to strangers on the phone all day is DRAINING.

I’m shy.  I avoid talking to strangers.

I’m incredibly awkward.  I’m no good at small talk.  Sometimes it’s hard to end conversations.

I’m sensitive.  I talk to angry people.  They take it out on me.  I take it personally.

My job doesn’t leave me energy to do what I want to do.

I’m afraid to quit.  Talking on the phone is my only real professional experience.  I hate it, but I need to pay rent, bills, etc.

I’m not sure how much longer I can take it.