I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings

I need to tell my story.  Or at least my side of the story.

I’m a terrible speaker.  I forget most of what I want to say.

I’m an introvert.  Writing comes more naturally to me.  I can put down what I remember.  I can add more later.  Then I can make it make sense after that.

I’m not trying to accuse anyone of anything.

I’m not trying to “out” anyone.

I don’t want to embarrass anyone.

I don’t want revenge.

I need to be understood.  So I’m telling my story.

I avoid naming names.  I don’t want to embarrass anyone.  I leave out details to avoid that.

Some people’s feelings get hurt anyway.  I’m sorry about that.

I’ve made a lot of bad choices in my life.  I guess my blog’s no different.

I hope I don’t alienate anyone.

My big mouth

Last night my wife said something to me.  It upset me.

I thought of a response.

I wasn’t going to say it.  But rather than just keeping quiet, I said, “I won’t say it.”

She wasn’t going to let it go.  I knew she wouldn’t.

After she prodded me I told her what it was.

I knew it would hurt her.  I underestimated how much.

I instantly regretted telling her.

I think she’s still hurting today.

I wish I could take it back.

But I can’t.