Things I’m grateful for today 20180110

  1. Radio
  2. Songs
  3. Nothing was seriously damaged
  4. Moving boxes
  5. My car gets good gas mileage
  6. My boys still love me
  7. Self-love
  8. ASMR videos
  9. Retrowave/Synthwave
  10. I’m still alive

Things I’m grateful for today 20180106

  1. My therapist
  2. Rain
  3. Pop Tarts
  4. Feeling better than yesterday
  5. Having a place to go
  6. Bernadette Logue
  7. Friends I can ask for help
  8. Libraries with wi-fi
  9. Gyms with showers
  10. I’m beginning to love and have compassion for myself

I’m a big teddy bear

I’m overweight.

There are some obvious drawbacks to this.

I’m not as healthy as I could be (to say the least).

I don’t have a lot of energy.

On the other hand, I understand I’m nice to cuddle with.

I’m also gentle.

I’m kind.

I’m loving.

I’m not very hairy (except for my beard).

There’s a lot to be said for being a big teddy bear.

I kinda like it.

 

I’m more negative than I realized

I’ve always thought of myself as an optimist.

The future will be better.

That keeps me going.

When I think about myself I focus on the negative, though.

I have a lot of good qualities.  I hesitate to share those.  I feel like I’m bragging.

I don’t think I should ignore my negative aspects.  Those need work.

Maybe the trick is to focus on the changes I want to make.

I need to love myself more

I’ve spent a lot of my life not loving myself.

Hating myself, even.

I suspect that’s a big part of the reason I’ve failed at so many things.

Then I beat myself up for being a failure.

I know I need to love myself if I’m going to be successful.  I’ve been working on it, but it’s not easy.

A big part of it is not saying and thinking negative things about myself.  Or at least saying and thinking more positive than negative.

If anyone has any suggestions for anything that’s worked for them I’d appreciate them.