So many things I haven’t done because I was afraid.
So many things I have done because I was afraid.
I let fear rule my life.
Fear is the main reason I haven’t started any businesses yet.
Fear is why I don’t get closer to people.
Open up to them.
I’ve done jobs I’ve hated for most of my adult life because I was afraid to try something new.
I’m tired of being afraid.
Several months ago my therapist asked me what I wanted. I wasn’t really sure.
He told me to find my voice.
I wasn’t sure what that even meant. Isn’t it that sound I make when I talk? The one that sounds so horrible when someone records it and plays it back?
I’m still not sure exactly what I want. I have a vague, hazy idea. It used to be better defined.
I wanted to be with my family. To be able to spend time with them.
I wanted to move to a small town. I wanted to buy some land outside of town and build a house.
I wanted to start a few internet businesses. I wanted to work from home.
I wanted to help other people. I wanted to make a difference.
I still want those things. I never had a clear idea of how to get there.
Now it’s even less clear.
I’ve found my voice in another way. I’ve found a way to express myself.
I hope it will help me get what I want.