I’m an extreme introvert

I need a lot of time to myself.  Being  around people drains my energy.  Being alone recharges me.  When I don’t get time to myself I get tired, frustrated.

I generally prefer small groups when I am with people.   I enjoy being around my family the most.

I don’t like dealing with strangers.

I’m not good at talking.  Especially small talk.  I’m better at writing. It gives me time to think about what I want to say.  I can go back and edit/proofread it.

 Talking on the phone is the worst.  I lose the benefits of talking to someone in person without gaining any of the benefits of writing.
A lot of the things I enjoy are one-person activities: video games, programming, surfing the intarwebs, reading, model building, drawing, writing, etc.

I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings

I need to tell my story.  Or at least my side of the story.

I’m a terrible speaker.  I forget most of what I want to say.

I’m an introvert.  Writing comes more naturally to me.  I can put down what I remember.  I can add more later.  Then I can make it make sense after that.

I’m not trying to accuse anyone of anything.

I’m not trying to “out” anyone.

I don’t want to embarrass anyone.

I don’t want revenge.

I need to be understood.  So I’m telling my story.

I avoid naming names.  I don’t want to embarrass anyone.  I leave out details to avoid that.

Some people’s feelings get hurt anyway.  I’m sorry about that.

I’ve made a lot of bad choices in my life.  I guess my blog’s no different.

I hope I don’t alienate anyone.

I hate my job

I hate talking on the phone.  I’ve been doing professionally for twelve years.

I’m an extreme introvert.  Talking to strangers on the phone all day is DRAINING.

I’m shy.  I avoid talking to strangers.

I’m incredibly awkward.  I’m no good at small talk.  Sometimes it’s hard to end conversations.

I’m sensitive.  I talk to angry people.  They take it out on me.  I take it personally.

My job doesn’t leave me energy to do what I want to do.

I’m afraid to quit.  Talking on the phone is my only real professional experience.  I hate it, but I need to pay rent, bills, etc.

I’m not sure how much longer I can take it.