Why do I drink caffeine?

I’ve mentioned before that I’m fat.

I’m guessing at least half of that excess weight came from Mountain Dew.

Partially because I like the way it tastes.

Partially because of the caffeine.

Quitting caffeine sucks.

I hate having a headache all the time.

Being tired all the time is the worst!

Caffeine withdrawal gives me this weird thirst.  I can’t quench it with water.

After the withdrawals are over I feel a lot better, though.

When I drink caffeine habitually I get heartburn.

As well as other digestive issues.

I don’t sleep very well.  I wake up in the middle of the night.  Then I don’t want to go back to sleep.

Drinking caffeine is not the best option for me.

But I have a hard time sticking to any kind of schedule.

Sometimes I get sleep deprived.  I feel like I need something extra.

Just one won’t hurt.

It’s never just one.

Before I know it, it’s become a habit again.

“How are you?”

Why do strangers ask me how I am?

They don’t really want to know.

I don’t really want to tell them.

Some don’t bother waiting for a  reply.

They just ask out of habit.

What else do people do just out of habit?  Unconsciously?

People need to start living more consciously.  More intentionally.

Especially me.