Still here

It’s been a while since I posted.

I spent as much time as I could with my boys over the summer.

Now they’re in school.

I still spend as much time with them as I can.  I see them every day.  It’s not as much as before, though.  Obviously.

It’s a lot more than most guys in my position, though.

Things I’m grateful for today 20180114

  1. Not feeling sad/depressed
  2. Being able to lay down
  3. Knowing the dizziness will pass
  4. Being able to look up symptoms
  5. Not being alone
  6. Toilet paper
  7. Liquid soap
  8. A little water won’t hurt me
  9. Third chances, fourth chances, etc.
  10. This isn’t going to kill me

Things I’m grateful for today 20180113

  1. My family being here today
  2. Time to talk with my son
  3. Watching The Last Jedi with my son
  4. Carrie Fisher
  5. The theater’s restroom being directly across from the auditorium we were in
  6. Cafe Rio
  7. Costa Vida
  8. A new pillow
  9. Socks
  10. Shoes

Things I’m grateful for today 20180111

  1. Not feeling sad all the time
  2. Anti-depressants
  3. My boys haven’t left yet
  4. I have another paycheck coming
  5. Severance
  6. My creativity
  7. Water
  8. Being clean
  9. Repentance
  10. Online bill pay

Gratitude

We all want things.

Wanting things reminds us of what we don’t have.

Our dream car.

Our dream house.

A boat like the neighbors’.

The problem with wanting things is that it never ends.

Many times I’ve wanted something.  Sometimes I have to wait until payday.  Sometimes I have to save up.

I buy the thing I wanted.  I feel satisfied for a little while.

Then I want something else.

A few weeks ago I started listing things I’m grateful for.  I’m trying to make this a daily habit.

I try not to repeat myself.

It’s easy at first.  I list the basics.

Then it gets harder.

I think about what’s happened to me over the last day.

I think about little things that make my life better.

Sometimes I have to think really hard.

Thinking about the good things helps me feel better about life.

It makes make more grateful.

It makes me happier.

If you need more happiness in your life (and who doesn’t) try counting your blessings.

Things I’m grateful for today 20180108

  1. Baby pictures
  2. Being able to pay the power bill
  3. My desk
  4. Guitars
  5. Thumb tacks
  6. Packaging tape
  7. Memories of good times
  8. Puppies
  9. Kittens
  10. Alpacas

Things I’m grateful for today 20180107

  1. My niece
  2. Scriptures
  3. Church being close by
  4. My boys getting to church
  5. Having options
  6. Story books
  7. Low-maintenance hair
  8. Trees
  9. Being able to walk
  10. My boys’ artwork

Things I’m grateful for today 20180106

  1. My therapist
  2. Rain
  3. Pop Tarts
  4. Feeling better than yesterday
  5. Having a place to go
  6. Bernadette Logue
  7. Friends I can ask for help
  8. Libraries with wi-fi
  9. Gyms with showers
  10. I’m beginning to love and have compassion for myself