Bread and Circuses

Ancient Rome.

The Emperors.

Bread and circuses.

Free food and entertainment for all citizens.

Distracting them from society’s problems.

There’s nothing wrong with food.  We need it to live.

There’s nothing wrong with occasional entertainment.

The problem is constant distraction.

From what’s important.

From the slow erosion of our liberties.

We need to be careful.

Otherwise, once it’s obvious what’s wrong,

It will be too late.

10 ways to help a headache

  1. Painkillers
  2. Meditation
  3. Deep breathing
  4. A hot shower
  5. Listening to relaxing music
  6. Watching/listening to ASMR videos
  7. Eating
  8. Silence
  9. Sleeping
  10. Drinking water

Self-sufficient

I hate being dependent on others.

I want to buy some land.  With cash.

To build a house.  With cash.

I want it to be efficient.

I want to generate my own electricity.  Solar.  Wind.  Thorium.  Zero Point Energy.  Whatever works.

I want to catch rain and snow.  Filter it.  Use it.

To grow my own food.

I want to help other people do these things.

To be free.

Things I’m grateful for 20171221

  1. Getting plenty of sleep
  2. A window I can open and close
  3. A flushing toilet
  4. Tissues
  5. Food
  6. Warm clothes
  7. Photographs
  8. VoIP
  9. Precipitation
  10. Mild weather

I don’t want to rush into a new relationship

Don’t worry about finding the right person.  Become the right person.

– Source Unknown

The first step to being the right person is loving yourself.

I’ve hated myself for a long as I can remember.

I’m working on loving myself now.  I feel pretty good about myself now.  I’ve got a lot of bad qualities, but there are a lot of good ones, too.  I can work on the bad ones, and the good ones can always get better.

My relationships with my boys are more important than any romantic relationships right now.  I’m a better father than I’ve been in the past, but there’s still plenty of room for improvement.

I’m not satisfied with a lot of things in my life right now.

I want to be able to go to the temple, and that’s not something I can do right now.  I want to improve my spirituality and get to the temple.

I’ve been doing phone jobs for most of my life.  I hate talking on the phone.  I ‘m burned out and I really need to do something else.

I’m not healthy.  I’m fat.  I go for walks, but not every day.  I don’t eat healthy.  I’m on an antidepressant and blood pressure meds.  I want to get off those.

I need to start reading books on a daily basis.  I want to learn and develop new skills.

I want to be my own boss.  I wants to build websites and make money from those.

I want to be able to afford to support myself, my wife and kids.  I want my mom to be able to stop working.

I don’t feel like I have to self-actualize before pursuing a romantic relationship.  I do want to get moving in the right direction and make some real progress first.

Making the changes I want will make me a different person.  Someone who would fall in love with the man I am now wouldn’t fall in love with the man I want to become.

The woman I really want to marry is someone who’d love that guy.