I’ve mentioned before that I’m fat.
I’m guessing at least half of that excess weight came from Mountain Dew.
Partially because I like the way it tastes.
Partially because of the caffeine.
Quitting caffeine sucks.
I hate having a headache all the time.
Being tired all the time is the worst!
Caffeine withdrawal gives me this weird thirst. I can’t quench it with water.
After the withdrawals are over I feel a lot better, though.
When I drink caffeine habitually I get heartburn.
As well as other digestive issues.
I don’t sleep very well. I wake up in the middle of the night. Then I don’t want to go back to sleep.
Drinking caffeine is not the best option for me.
But I have a hard time sticking to any kind of schedule.
Sometimes I get sleep deprived. I feel like I need something extra.
Just one won’t hurt.
It’s never just one.
Before I know it, it’s become a habit again.
There are some obvious drawbacks to this.
I’m not as healthy as I could be (to say the least).
I don’t have a lot of energy.
On the other hand, I understand I’m nice to cuddle with.
I’m also gentle.
I’m not very hairy (except for my beard).
There’s a lot to be said for being a big teddy bear.
I kinda like it.
That’s what the scale said the last time I was at the doctor’s office.
I haven’t always been fat. I was chubby as a kid, but nothing like this.
When I graduated from high school I was 6’0″ and 180 lbs.
When I went to college I started walking a lot. One time I walked with a friend to the next town, which was six miles away, and halfway back (we got a ride from some kind strangers).
When I was dating my first serious girlfriend I started drinking Mountain Dew. That’s also when I got my first car. Then she left me for someone else and I got depressed. I lived alone and didn’t have any friends. That’s when I started putting on weight.
I’m not sure if I lost weight the first time I moved back in with my mom. I know I did the second time. I went from almost 300 lbs down to about 220 lbs. Then I started gaining again.
I was 275 by the time I moved back out again, and 350 by the time I met my wife. At one point I weighed 422 or more, now it’s down to 400.
I’ve tried a few things to lose weight. I’ve tried eating salads every day. I’ve tried quitting soda and just drinking water. I’ve tried going for walks. But I’m not consistent. I have trouble sticking with the changes I make. I give up too easily.