Things I’m grateful for today 20180113

  1. My family being here today
  2. Time to talk with my son
  3. Watching The Last Jedi with my son
  4. Carrie Fisher
  5. The theater’s restroom being directly across from the auditorium we were in
  6. Cafe Rio
  7. Costa Vida
  8. A new pillow
  9. Socks
  10. Shoes

10 ways to live well

  1. Spend lots of quality time with my boys
  2. Be as spiritual as possible
  3. Eat well
  4. Exercise regularly
  5. Make a meaningful contribution to the world
  6. Help others make a meaningful contribution to the world
  7. Spend time with people who care about me
  8. Avoid negative people
  9. Travel
  10. Get plenty of sleep

Things I’m grateful for 20171227

  1. Waking up alive
  2. My family being home
  3. Scented candles
  4. Working from home
  5. Cell phones
  6. Cough drops
  7. Showers
  8. Beard oil
  9. Sunshine
  10. Headsets

Things I’m grateful for 20171226

  1. My family and I had a good day yesterday
  2. Recordings of my boys
  3. I got home safely last night
  4. Mr. Krueger’s Christmas
  5. My cold improving
  6. Window scrapers
  7. Patience
  8. Having a job until the end of the week
  9. Abundance
  10. Knowing that things will work out

Family is a treasure

My five-year-old sleeps in my wife’s bed.  He has for a few months now.

He goes to sleep a lot earlier than she does.

He always wants someone to be with him.

My wife is usually busy with homework.

I don’t mind laying down with him.  Most nights that’s what I do.

The other night I was laying down with him.  I was rubbing his hair.

My mind kept wandering.  I reminded myself that my time with my boys is short.  I tried to stay focused on being with him.

I realized there wasn’t anywhere else I wanted to be right then.

What better place could there be?

I’m an extreme introvert

I need a lot of time to myself.  Being  around people drains my energy.  Being alone recharges me.  When I don’t get time to myself I get tired, frustrated.

I generally prefer small groups when I am with people.   I enjoy being around my family the most.

I don’t like dealing with strangers.

I’m not good at talking.  Especially small talk.  I’m better at writing. It gives me time to think about what I want to say.  I can go back and edit/proofread it.

 Talking on the phone is the worst.  I lose the benefits of talking to someone in person without gaining any of the benefits of writing.
A lot of the things I enjoy are one-person activities: video games, programming, surfing the intarwebs, reading, model building, drawing, writing, etc.

I don’t want to rush into a new relationship

Don’t worry about finding the right person.  Become the right person.

– Source Unknown

The first step to being the right person is loving yourself.

I’ve hated myself for a long as I can remember.

I’m working on loving myself now.  I feel pretty good about myself now.  I’ve got a lot of bad qualities, but there are a lot of good ones, too.  I can work on the bad ones, and the good ones can always get better.

My relationships with my boys are more important than any romantic relationships right now.  I’m a better father than I’ve been in the past, but there’s still plenty of room for improvement.

I’m not satisfied with a lot of things in my life right now.

I want to be able to go to the temple, and that’s not something I can do right now.  I want to improve my spirituality and get to the temple.

I’ve been doing phone jobs for most of my life.  I hate talking on the phone.  I ‘m burned out and I really need to do something else.

I’m not healthy.  I’m fat.  I go for walks, but not every day.  I don’t eat healthy.  I’m on an antidepressant and blood pressure meds.  I want to get off those.

I need to start reading books on a daily basis.  I want to learn and develop new skills.

I want to be my own boss.  I wants to build websites and make money from those.

I want to be able to afford to support myself, my wife and kids.  I want my mom to be able to stop working.

I don’t feel like I have to self-actualize before pursuing a romantic relationship.  I do want to get moving in the right direction and make some real progress first.

Making the changes I want will make me a different person.  Someone who would fall in love with the man I am now wouldn’t fall in love with the man I want to become.

The woman I really want to marry is someone who’d love that guy.