I’ve mentioned before that I’m fat.
I’m guessing at least half of that excess weight came from Mountain Dew.
Partially because I like the way it tastes.
Partially because of the caffeine.
Quitting caffeine sucks.
I hate having a headache all the time.
Being tired all the time is the worst!
Caffeine withdrawal gives me this weird thirst. I can’t quench it with water.
After the withdrawals are over I feel a lot better, though.
When I drink caffeine habitually I get heartburn.
As well as other digestive issues.
I don’t sleep very well. I wake up in the middle of the night. Then I don’t want to go back to sleep.
Drinking caffeine is not the best option for me.
But I have a hard time sticking to any kind of schedule.
Sometimes I get sleep deprived. I feel like I need something extra.
Just one won’t hurt.
It’s never just one.
Before I know it, it’s become a habit again.
There are some obvious drawbacks to this.
I’m not as healthy as I could be (to say the least).
I don’t have a lot of energy.
On the other hand, I understand I’m nice to cuddle with.
I’m also gentle.
I’m not very hairy (except for my beard).
There’s a lot to be said for being a big teddy bear.
I kinda like it.
I want to start my own business, but I can never find the time. I don’t have the energy.
I’ve thought about studying martial arts to help me be more disciplined. But there’s always some reason I can’t.
A lot of the reasons I can’t do things aren’t real reasons. They’re just excuses.
I need to stop making them.
I hate talking on the phone. I’ve been doing professionally for twelve years.
I’m an extreme introvert. Talking to strangers on the phone all day is DRAINING.
I’m shy. I avoid talking to strangers.
I’m incredibly awkward. I’m no good at small talk. Sometimes it’s hard to end conversations.
I’m sensitive. I talk to angry people. They take it out on me. I take it personally.
My job doesn’t leave me energy to do what I want to do.
I’m afraid to quit. Talking on the phone is my only real professional experience. I hate it, but I need to pay rent, bills, etc.
I’m not sure how much longer I can take it.