Things I’m grateful for today 20180114

  1. Not feeling sad/depressed
  2. Being able to lay down
  3. Knowing the dizziness will pass
  4. Being able to look up symptoms
  5. Not being alone
  6. Toilet paper
  7. Liquid soap
  8. A little water won’t hurt me
  9. Third chances, fourth chances, etc.
  10. This isn’t going to kill me

I’m bad at relationships

I tend to rush into romance.

I think I’m just scared of being “forever alone.”

I talk about getting married with a girl before we’ve even gotten to know each other.

I’ve wanted to be married my whole life.

I didn’t date at all in high school.

I took things slow with the first couple of girls I dated.  Maybe too slow.

After that I started rushing things.  Each relationship faster than the one before.

I was engaged twice before meeting my wife.  I never did get the know the second girl very well.  We only dated for a few weeks before getting engaged.  We were only together for a few weeks after that.

I only date my wife for a few weeks before we started talking about marriage.  A little while after that I realized I was doing it again.

By the time we’d known each other for a year our first son was born.