I don’t think I’m who you wanted me to be.
I’m not what you needed.
I wasn’t good about helping you.
I’m not good about cleaning.
I’m a slob.
I didn’t cook.
I didn’t do all the things.
I did some things for you.
I just wasn’t good about doing the things you really wanted.
I really tried sometimes.
I just couldn’t keep it up.
I don’t know why.
I wanted to be your Prince Charming. The one who’d never hurt you. The one who’d rescue you from the people who hurt you.
But I was one of those people.
I lied to you.
I let you down.
I wasn’t who you wanted me to be.
I wasn’t who I wanted me to be.
I’m trying to become someone better.
It’s so hard.
It takes so long.
I know it’s too long for you.
I hope in a few years I’ll be the dad our sweet boys deserve.
I hope you can be happy. You deserve it.
I don’t mean to act like I don’t care.
These stupid pills are keeping me alive long enough to change.
But they also keep me from showing how sorry I am.
I’m able to write this now because I didn’t take them yesterday.
I’m so sorry for letting you down.
I hope you can find someone who’s everything you want.